On the contrary, it is worth my time because my warden has also restricted my magic.
[ There's a pause as Strange decides how to say this before he continues with, ]
I hate it. I feel like I am constantly walking around the ship with a sense missing or a limb removed. I don't care about things like bargains, I care because neither of our wardens realize just how horrible this feeling actually is. I do not think anyone who has not had magic could understand that feeling. And if I cannot convince my warden, the least I can do is try to convince yours.
[oh. It's rare she feels..so instantly empathetic. Kikimora is silent for a time, getting her thoughts together. It's not easy wanting to sympathize and also being paranoid about sympathizing with anyone so soon.]
..yes. Yes, it feels like that exactly. With the additional paranoia of having your best defenses shucked from you, like peeling off some of your skin.
Una Persson. I feel she could be amenable if someone approached her from the right angle. Unfortunately, none of the angles that I have tried seem to work.
I at least work in the counseling office with Bright. I can use that as a point to start the conversation.
Unfortunately, Warden Bright has proven himself to be immensely stubborn about the return of my own magic. He believes I would use it to harass others, but he forgets that I can and have caused plenty of mischief aboard this ship without them. He believes magic is a privilege to be earned.
[ oh Strange is PISSED at that implication and also rankles at the thought. ]
Magic is innate to us! It is something we've had for ages! [ okay, Kiki more than Strange, who just learned he had magic like, ten years ago, but still counts. ] Would he view the ability to speak as a privilege? It is the same thing as magic, a skill that we have learned and practiced and can certainly use to cause trouble, and yet no warden would think of ripping our our tongues!
Oh, Miss Kikimora, I am equally livid on your behalf to hear he thinks that way!
I KNOW. But try explaining that to a human who comes from a magicless world and has never had cause to get along without it.
[wow this is refreshing to get out of her system]
The only other person from my world here is someone who never had innate magic to BEGIN with. My warden is far too preoccupied with me making friends. He believes I don't need magic to defend myself since I didn't die during my long stint of being wardenless, but I lacked the articulation to make him understand why I needed it back!
Of course I do! [ he huffs. ] And the fact that you didn't die without magic is ridiculous. All that means is that you were lucky, not that you suddenly have the skills needed to defend yourself.
If all your warden needs to give you your magic back is proof that you have friends, then that should be easy enough. After all, we are already friends. [ they had like, two conversations, but Strange likes Kiki. It's so refreshing to know someone who feels the same way that you do, who's suffering in the same way, who just gets it. ]
I shall inform him of that fact and plead your case for you.
[oh she is not used to sudden overtures of friendship. Kiki hesitates but it's rare she gets along so well with someone at the jump, without worrying what they want from her in return. She KNOWS what Strange wants; the same things she does. It's..nice, it being so easy]
I would do the same for you, but I don't know what you've tried with Warden Una just yet. I believe Malcolm requires proof I will not use my magic in a way he deems unfit.
I am not sure myself. My first actions when I arrived here were...misguided. I suspect she wants proof I will not use my magic in a way that will harm others. Though I have no idea how she expects me to obtain that proof if she makes it so my magic cannot harm people to begin with.
I'm glad to see we're on the same page on that matter as well. I have no idea how they expect us to accomplish their goals under these horrible circumstances!
Exactly. I understand that they want us to be self-sufficient without our magic, that we should be able to manage and grow on our own, but there will be very few times I am without my magic back home. If my personal growth is dependent on a lack of magic, then surely it would revert the moment I receive my magic back.
And besides, the circumstances that killed me would not be solved if I do not have magic! If anything, I should have my magic back to full strength so that when I graduate this place, I am not instantly thrown to the wolves.
While I appreciate the offer, wouldn't that make it less likely for your warden to give you your magic back? No, we both should be in life-threatening danger but individually, in different opportunities. That way our wardens would see that magic is useful for defending ourselves and solving whatever problems come our way.
[ a pause before, ]
Though I would prefer not to die, of course. I do not trust the Admiral in the slightest. Bringing people back from the dead is never as easy as he makes it seem.
On the contrary, I think it is showing the wardens just how important our magic is to us. After all, there are very few things I would do a fool-hearty action to obtain. Magic is one of them.
Alas, I never really had any need to know medicinal arts. When I fought in the peninsula, I was mostly on the offensive line, nothing to support the soldiers directly.
That will not stop me, however. I can research that sort of magic and then attempt to craft a spell myself.
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Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:14 pm (UTC)[ There's a pause as Strange decides how to say this before he continues with, ]
I hate it. I feel like I am constantly walking around the ship with a sense missing or a limb removed. I don't care about things like bargains, I care because neither of our wardens realize just how horrible this feeling actually is. I do not think anyone who has not had magic could understand that feeling. And if I cannot convince my warden, the least I can do is try to convince yours.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:20 pm (UTC)..yes. Yes, it feels like that exactly. With the additional paranoia of having your best defenses shucked from you, like peeling off some of your skin.
Who is your warden?
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:25 pm (UTC)I at least work in the counseling office with Bright. I can use that as a point to start the conversation.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:31 pm (UTC)[She rankles at the thought]
What angles have you tried?
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:39 pm (UTC)[ oh Strange is PISSED at that implication and also rankles at the thought. ]
Magic is innate to us! It is something we've had for ages! [ okay, Kiki more than Strange, who just learned he had magic like, ten years ago, but still counts. ] Would he view the ability to speak as a privilege? It is the same thing as magic, a skill that we have learned and practiced and can certainly use to cause trouble, and yet no warden would think of ripping our our tongues!
Oh, Miss Kikimora, I am equally livid on your behalf to hear he thinks that way!
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:43 pm (UTC)[wow this is refreshing to get out of her system]
The only other person from my world here is someone who never had innate magic to BEGIN with. My warden is far too preoccupied with me making friends. He believes I don't need magic to defend myself since I didn't die during my long stint of being wardenless, but I lacked the articulation to make him understand why I needed it back!
[Huff! huff!]
You...really do understand, don't you, Strange?
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 03:58 pm (UTC)If all your warden needs to give you your magic back is proof that you have friends, then that should be easy enough. After all, we are already friends. [ they had like, two conversations, but Strange likes Kiki. It's so refreshing to know someone who feels the same way that you do, who's suffering in the same way, who just gets it. ]
I shall inform him of that fact and plead your case for you.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:03 pm (UTC)I would do the same for you, but I don't know what you've tried with Warden Una just yet. I believe Malcolm requires proof I will not use my magic in a way he deems unfit.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:17 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:18 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:21 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:22 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:27 pm (UTC)And besides, the circumstances that killed me would not be solved if I do not have magic! If anything, I should have my magic back to full strength so that when I graduate this place, I am not instantly thrown to the wolves.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:29 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:34 pm (UTC)[ a pause before, ]
Though I would prefer not to die, of course. I do not trust the Admiral in the slightest. Bringing people back from the dead is never as easy as he makes it seem.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 04:46 pm (UTC)Perhaps next port we can hatch a plot.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-27 10:12 pm (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 02:25 am (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 03:55 am (UTC)Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 04:06 am (UTC)I also may need your help with something else. Something to do with magic, but we may need to wait until you have yours back before we can try.
Do you know any spells to erase or burn a mark off someone's skin?
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 04:09 am (UTC)That will not stop me, however. I can research that sort of magic and then attempt to craft a spell myself.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 04:11 am (UTC)[she pulls her sleeve back to display her arm. A small triangular tattoo is set in her inner wrist]
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 04:34 am (UTC)[ Strange can understand a bit of subterfuge! He gives Kikimora a little nod of acknowledgement before, ]
Then that is where I shall focus my studies next.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 05:09 am (UTC)Plus it may need magic. But thank you, Strange.
Re: voice
Date: 2023-12-28 05:27 am (UTC)And you are welcome, Miss Kikimora. I hope I can be of use.
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